Physical. Mental. Emotional. Spiritual. Your legs down work, your body becomes a lifeless vessel, barely existing. Your mind turns against you, tells you to stop, to give up, you aren't good enough. Manic depression, seclusion from friends, family, people in general, no desire to be happy. Trapped, dead, no life left, simply a body existing in the physically world, but nothing beyond that. You're left with only one choice. Give up, stop, quit, let the physical and mental wearing cease, but also let the emotional and spiritual wearing grow more so. Or continue, keep going, let the physical and mental wearing continue, risk worsening the emotional and spiritual wearing, but carry on. Because at this point all you have left is the run.
This is me right now, this is how I cope; I will pull on my shorts, lace up my shoes. I will grab my backpack and head down to the track. I will start my watch and put one foot in front of the other. I will go along, bringing more fatigue and stress to my body. But I will go along. I won't stop, I won't quit, not even for a day. Because for me, there is no life for me without the run, no reason to get up, no reason to go to class, no reason to eat or drink, no reason to exist. Without the run I am nothing, so in spite of this feeling of nothing that envelopes me, at least I'm feeling, because when the day ends, and my sorrows turn to sleep, I know I can say, "at least I ran today," and that is enough for me to do it again, day after day.
Perseverance is the key. You have worked hard all summer for this year, the year you guys WILL make it to Nationals as a team. It's the accumulation of your hardwork and your team's hardwork, that will elevate you to success. You have spent too much time training to let it all go to waste. So keep your head up and just do work!
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